Waste of time on earth.

Phone recently spoiled, got a new phone from dad. Apparently im not allowed to get any new fuckin phone so i settled with some fucked-up retro nokia phone from our grandpa's age. Whatever. Ytd, lost file. Went back to search for it, lost my iPod. whatthefuck. Came home,went to get my sandals from Parent's house, apparently my Dad cant fuckin tell the diff between SANDALS and SLIPPERS. chao chee bye, went to get Havanas from eugene, cant use them in the end. Got criticised by drum teacher for having the side-reading skills of a grade 1 student. Knn, life is a fuckin bummer.

Its only inevitable for a person like me blessed with such a fucked-up lot in my life to constantly reflect on this eff-ed up life i have here. Is it just me? My inability to feel satisfied with whatever comes my way? Whatever, i dont care, just gonna live life as it comes. Its so fucked-up anyway, why not just approach it with a smile? After all, a smile and a fuckin frown would make no bloody difference, at least a smile can brighten the day of my mates, my day is alr fucked-up enough, no point screwing their day up as well. Whats wrong with me?!?! I think i suffer from multi-personality disorder, i so abhor people discussing the issue of me not being a virgin yet i so enjoy the moment when they actually discuss it. Fuck this shit, whats wrong with me?!?!?! I think i suffer from mood swings as well, im so extroverted at times yet so introverted at times; i cant seem to control it. My friends are beginning to notice it as well. I need to stop this soon, fuck this shit. BUT HOW?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????? Somehow, i have a hunch that my life is gonna end in my own hands someday soon. Im not a suicidal, AM I?!?! Who cares? Doesnt make no diff whether i kill myself or whatever, we are all headed towards death from the moment we were born, are we not? Im just doing myself a favor by releasing myself from all this pain, its an early release. whatever. Im tired, lets end this post on a happy note -- WE ARE ALL GONNA DIE ONE DAY!!!